Personal White Noise

Minding my own business doesn’t always go as planned. Over breakfast at the EC (see The Emerald City), where I hang my morning jacket, I was planning on returning some favors of recommendation for former colleagues via linkedin; over my black coffee I got a dose of morning racism.

I’m at the handy dandy computer updating the cafe’s facebook photos and an acquaintance, Ken, of mine is sitting near the windows on his phone. Directly next to me sat a curmudgeonly stranger pouring over what looked liked those widget symbols for typing text that no one ever uses. Not intentionally, but due to intimate space I was overhearing the conversation Ken was having about “when you deal with me you better have some common sense,” and I couldn’t help but laugh a little. “I’m sorry,” I said. “I didn’t mean to eavesdrop; I just couldn’t help but hear and relate.” Ken’s conversation was a little funny but he didn’t mind my laughter, after all he knows I’m a comic. “Loud mouth nigger,” the stranger to my left says under his breath. I completely stopped. Truly, he didn’t just say that.

Here I enter into my own interior monologue, a button “A” button “B” scenario. Ken didn’t hear him. Do I just ignore him in hopes that he’ll just go away or do I hit the “A” button and say, “What did you just say?” Ken keeps talking and just for sake of clarity let’s give the stranger to my left a name, Hitler’s Widget or H.W. for short. Well, next thing I know H.W. get’s a little louder saying, “Fuckin’ loud mouth nigger talking loud in a cafe.” “Wow,” I say and get up from my seat to go and meet Brian in the back. “Do you know who this old racist is out here calling one of your customers “nigger?” “I don’t know who you’re talking about,” says Brian as we walk out to the floor together. We both sit at the computers near H.W. Nothing is said for a moment.

Here I recall mention of “project paperclip” from The Rise of the Fourth Reich by Jim Marrs.

minus the swastika, reverse the black and red, that's the symbol on H.W.'s bag... wow

Only a moment passes. Again with the comments now no longer under his breath and very directed at Ken over and over again with the n-word. Ken is now aware. Attempting to difuse the situation without direct confrontation I say, “Hey Brian, have you seen Whoopi’s new musical, White Noise, it deals with fascists.” Jumping right in H.W. says to me “I’m not a fascist, I’m just proud.” Well, I must’ve mispoke. To be more clear I say, “I think you’d really benefit from seeing it; it’s all about white supremacists. You’d love it.” H.W. replies, “Oh, so you’re gonna sell out to?” Dumfounded, hearing Brian now ring in, “Hey buddy you just need to leave now,” to which H.W. replies, “I need my refill first.” H.W. keeps going on and on “I had an inkling about you people, that you were going to be nigger lovers,” to which Brian replies, “Really man? We live in the 21st century; look at the city you chose to leave in. You’re really going to be like that?” Proudly, H.W. says “I’m going to be proud of who I am and” goes on to say something about the black agenda while Brian hands him his cup and tells him he just needs to get out. He says one more thing to me and by now my fight or flight is soaring and I’m shaking with fury but I manage to articulate a portion of my argument, “Anyone who has ever been affilliated with any sort of my minority should be capable of empathizing with acts of prejudice.” Here I get my first look into his eyes. “Blah, blah, blah, blah,” he says as a broken record on top of my offered sense. After he stops I just look at him, “It’s easy for the ignorant to dismiss knowledge.” After all they’ve been doing it for many years. As he leaves the cafe his bag swings over his shoulder and I see the image of the bird bringing the reich to mind. “Nice image on your bag buddy,” I sardonically deliver. “Thank you,” he says and leaves the space.

It will always prove difficult to reason with anyone when their head is filled with nothing but their own personal white noise, static in the music of life.

What an image. Personally, I prefer the phoenix as in the summoned mythical creature famous to me from the final fantasy video game series. Sadly however, there is no grand summoned beast to battle the monster mentality that is alive and well today. There is only you and I. As the EC staff, Ken and I go over our disbelief concerning what just happened I can’t shake synchronicity. Having just seen a show dealing with this topic days ago, the subject, already on the forefront of my mind, was thrust into my face with no fourth wall.

The lines I find most relevant from the show (see White Noise) come from the scene between Dion and Eve where they exchange every derogatory term in the book only saved by Dion’s differentiating Eve as unrepresentative of her race as he remains, “smart enough to know the difference.”

To think I considered saying nothing to H.W. in hopes that he would just go away. Rationalizing with a madman may seem futile but ignoring ignorance does not offer any solution. Such people must know that now they are the minority. They must be made to feel this reality. So, if ever you consider to press button “B” to mind your own business just remember that addressing prejudice of all colors is a responsibility for anyone with a voice.

It’s not a game people, but everyone can play their part. Speak out against the hate whenever it arises; this is one of the great steps to creating the rebirth of human consciousness. This rising need not happen through ashes of war but through an awakening of our own potential for continual growth outside of the machine.

Are you making noise?

White Noise, A Cautionary Musical

“We hate them, they hate us, they hate us, we hate them and…” will prove a poignant ellipsis for any open ears that find their last-minute way into Chicago’s new rock musical of illuminating controversy, White Noise, A Cautionary Musical.

Selling out stirs the young, attractive, highly marketable white supremacists into the melting pot of talent under the wing of strictly business Max (Douglas Sills) who around the same time transforms an ivy league educated team of two into a more money-making, rap gangster duo. The former, after Max’s right hand man Jake adjusts the trio’s fascist lyrics into main stream language, becomes pop star band White Noise and the later becomes the Blood Brothers.
Through these parallel roads of fame and monetary success we see the “Brothers,” Dion (Wallace Smith) and Tylers’ (Rodney Hicks) frustration for continuing the trend at hand to get the crowds while fuhrer following sisters Eden (Emily Padgett) and Eva (Mackenzie Mauzy) adjust in their own ways while one remains paired with an apathetic animosity embodied by her lover Duke (Patrick Murney). As Jake attempts reason with Eden we hear the disconcerting thoughts of one torn, “You only see the hate, but I see the hurt,” and even more head shaking is the unforgiving full throttle drive of Eva who will break for no one while hurling herself towards a name of lights which will no doubt explode as a short-lived sadistic star. “They’re going to buy me.”


Voices of impact are heard through devilishly appropriate song titles such as ‘W.T.F.’ (white trash fairy tale [a personal favorite]) “one day you’re on the bottom, the next day you’re on top.” Unsettling gestures fill the spun title ‘Mondays Suck’ and an ensemble fueled presence sets off the talent in ‘Showtime’ hit while the battle with a bang ensues during the ‘Master Race’; minds are bombarded by the reality set forth in the finale ‘I am America.’

This show is presented by Whoopi Goldberg, always a name I love to follow, and I could not commend her more for her part in this effort. It is a story that needs to be heard.

To be brief, the only thing I regret about this show was not having seen it sooner.

Programs contain support for awareness from the Southern Poverty Law Center. Taken directly from my personal program, a quote at length from Director of SPLC’s Teaching Tolerance Maureen Costello follows:

Messages of hate aren’t confined to the radical fringes of our society. They can be encoded in popular music. They can be threaded into political rhetoric. They can be heard on talk radio–or in the schoolyard. We cannot outlaw hate speech–It’s protected by the First Amendment. But we can be aware of it… And, we can speak out against it. This groundbreaking production raises important issues about the power of hate speech in our culture and should inspire people of conscience to call out others who engage in it. We applaud the producers and the entire White Noise company for their great work.

White Noise ran a limited run in Chicago, IL

Click here to visit the White Noise website.

The only way any industry will ever change its tune is if we as a population stop buying what they, the industry in question, are selling. It is time to buy some truth.

White  Noise is the sound and sight that merits being royally received.

Tickets may be purchased directly through the Royal George Theatre which is located at 1641 N Halstead St. just north of North Avenue. Seats are limited and the show is scheduled to close tomorrow! Remaining show times include tonight (5/14/2011) at 8:00p.m. and tomorrow (5/1502011) at 2:00p.m. and 5:00p.m.

Visit www.whitenoisemusical.com for more information.

The Fighter’s Mind, Inside the Mental Game

If any reader has ever thought “fighting” to be some barbaric competitive outlet that has no bearing outside of brawn a read of The Fighter’s Mind, Inside the Mental Game will offer enlightening insight.

Author Sam Sheridan shares the universality in the simple line, “that everyone is fighting something,” and in this book addresses what some consider to be a cliche tag, ‘”Fighting is fifty percent mental”‘ (preface). Throughout Sam’s travels he interviews great fighters from various backgrounds and styles setting out to answer many questions from many minds. Among those there is one mind familiar to many in an unrecognized way.

Josh Waitzkin proves to be a mountain of mental development within the ring. Searching for Bobby Fischer is a film adapted from “a book that Josh’s ‘Pop’ had written about Josh’s early chess career” (pg. 184). As an early chess master both his mind and his reputation were no strangers to fame. As an author himself, Josh has written both Attacking Chess and The Art of Learning (both of which are available directly from the author’s website, here) the later of which received praise from numerous inspirational writers including Deepak Chopra. It is within this chapter that Sheridan truly taps the undeniable truth of the psychological traps and pitfalls to which the contenders are subject.

Queries stretch along lines of heroes, unmatched rivals and personal inspirations. What it takes to be one of those heroes is answered in part by esteemed trainers such as Freddie Roach and Greg Jackson.

How these men reach heightened planes of performance is unveiled through their own given circumstance. These men accomplish amazing physical feats such as is with the case of “Captain America” Randy Couture whose body has become more of a championed machine. During strenuous activity our bodies produce higher levels of lactic acid resulting in what we experience as fatigue. After years of vigorous conditioning Randy’s body does not.

The Fighter's Mind, Inside the Mental Game

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Where the fight takes place stretches over continents and transcends both the mind and body. Later in the book, we see a list from Applied Sport Psychology containing qualities of “peak performance” (pg. 255):

  • Loss of fear–no fear of failure
  • No thinking of performance
  • Total immersion in activity
  • Narrow focus of attention
  • Effortless performance–not forcing it
  • Feeling of being in complete control
  • Time/Space disorientation (usually showed down)
  • Universe perceived to be integrated and unified
  • Unique, temporary, involuntary experience
Sam relates these bullets to the Zen of martial arts.

The who contained within the book includes well-known names of accomplished fighters including Rory Markham, Mark DellaGrotte,  Frank Shamrock, Andre Ward, Dan Gable and Renzo Gracie.

However many questions are answered inside of this text the why is the sought after reason which remains most elusive. During an interview with Jon Stewart, The Daily Show, Sam is asked why he crossed the boundary and traveled to Thailand to fight and replies with a less than articulate response (which he acknowledges nearing the close of the book) and follows with a comment about fighting being an “art,” to which Jon lays his exquisite wit.

There is much to be said about the passion driving performance across the board, going beyond fighting, beyond running, beyond theater. Dually personal and widely relative this read, while not providing the backing to qualify fighting as an art, does allow answers for the who, what, when, where and how of the mind’s journey while faced with the life and death bouts that extend far beyond the category of sport.

In summation, to quote a friend, the message anyone can find resonate here is that, “To be really really good at anything takes dedication and a lot of hard work.”

Sam Sheridan is also the author of A Fighter’s Heart.