The Right Time … for Who

December 18, 2014December 18, 2014 / nicholasdaletaylor / Leave a comment

I was walking home today from work, feeling dirty. Not because of my ongoing romps in the bedroom but because of the street view and the view of the given circumstance… it’s the right time for change. A man I admire once told me this:

It’s all in how you frame it.

Today is 12/13/14 and I have always been a fan of dates, not necessarily the romantic ones.

“Today I came out of debt for the first time since I was 17.” It was the right time to be debt free… and embrace debt forgiveness (if you’re the government or some shit).

It is time to actually make something. The taste that is left in my mouth by serving a company or a product that sells false hope or remains worthless is far worse than the bitterest or the sourest percimmon.

I walked by that place where that guy got shot a few days ago. There were about 12 candles surrounding a bottle or orange soda and a picture of Jesus. I just stopped and stared at it for about two minutes. I wonder who put these things here?

As I write part of this a friend sits behind me. I have never written while someone literally watched over my shoulder. Everything changes when it is being observed, even on a subatomic level. Being made up of all those little particles, it is a logical notion to be aware that our awareness of being watched changes everything. What happens when the watching ends?

Dance like no one’s watching.

Today is the right time for you to love you. Often times we all beat ourselves up over missteps in relationships, our financial debt or whatever else we perceive as shortcomings. I have probably mentioned it once before somewhere in these pages but a dear friend once said to me the following, little line which still rings as dear to me than ever before.

Hey, you are enough.

While hearing this in the midst of a dramatic, mid-twenties nervous breakdown it certainly wasn’t a moment of clarity. Yet, the more I have thought about those simple words, the clearer it all becomes. It’s not what I haven’t done or have yet to do, it’s what I have done. It’s not what you didn’t get, it’s what you’ve got.

In our nation we are taught to compete. While competition is good for the market when the veil of “economic prosperity” is lifted where do you find yourself? How do we “compete” in a cycle where money is simply meant to trickle down for a bit only to rise back up to the top in the forms of fees, insurance, interest, student loans and the income tax. Seems far from the light side of the perspective to dwell on such realities yet I somehow manage a smile to find myself at a break even point in my life.

And I met someone new.

^_^

Boy he made me smile so much yesterday. I wonder if I will ever see him again.

Nonetheless, “it’s all in how you frame it.” Right Jerre?

A really big, tall, Native America guy once said to me “I fall in love a hundred times a day if I’m lucky.” However many fleeting moments I have had with so many men who have turned and ran for the hills matters not. What does matter is the small moments of happiness we both had before they were gone.

Money, love, sex, relationships, bills, work, random thoughts… it all adds up to getting lost in the muck. I remind myself of these quotes and know that I am “enough” and it is all in the way I “frame it” and that it’s o.k. for me to “fall in love a hundred times a day.” One day it will be returned in an unquestionable way that leaves me knowing that it’s the right time… but as for who, who knows.

Rapper Kid in Jail

May 23, 2013May 23, 2013 / nicholasdaletaylor / 1 Comment

Shame we don’t teach cursive in schools anymore.

Often times I hesitate before writing the first word. I filter my own right of creativity and speech. That’s the most prominent topic in my mind after encountering a jarring article about a young man named Cameron D’ Ambrosio, a YouTube rapper who goes by Cammy Dee.

Cammy posted some of his lyrics on facebook. What happened next? This 18 year old boy found himself in prison. Why? A portion of his song makes reference to the recent, unfortunate Boston marathon bombing. The song also contains expletives and words condemning the government, O’bama and the like. The media, as they often do, took the lyrics out of context for further hype and to coat the matter in a more negative light. To see the lyrics in plain view and hear more about the argument visit Fight for the Future.

After looking at the charges maybe we could all use a timeless review of the Bill of Rights, specifically the 1st amendment.

I know my writing is usually funny or leans toward a spiritual stream of consciousness if you will, but I’ve been hard pressed to write lately. This news called me to arms to not only express my concern for this matter but also to exercise my right to voice my thoughts, freely and without fear of persecution. This young man’s words were, regardless of any interpretation, a creative outlet for a guy who likes rap music. How many violent words can be heard throughout the many great voices of the genre? Why this one young man?

This argument against Cameron D’ Ambrosio is one fueled by ignorance. This young man is locked up, faces charges of communicating a threat of terrorism and a potential 20 years behind bars. Not only was there no mention of a target in Cameron’s performance, there was no evidence to support that Cameron is an actual threat. This is a case of police gusto and stupidity.

In short, all charges should be dropped. It is best summed up by a random comment on Cameron’s YouTube page:

OMG at the top of my voice. I cant believe the government is going after this guy. The only think this guy is guilty of is be a bad raper and beat maker.

Pardon the guy’s typos but you get the point. This kid should not be in jail. Bail is set at 1,000,000 dollars. Hey Usher, go bail him out.

Yesterday and Today

December 22, 2012December 22, 2012 / nicholasdaletaylor / Leave a comment

We are still here. Remember that conversation traveling across languages. “Hey, the mayan calendar is ending on 12/21/12 and we’re all going to die,” or something to that extent was one sentiment. However, the other side of the coin remains one of spiritual awakening.

You may consider yourself a skeptic when words like “spirituality,” “collective consciousness,” or the like arise. In addition, some of you may be apprehensive or completely opposed to such conversation as you believe such to be blasphemous or against your religion/belief system. Whatever the position, you are part of this grand thing, something larger than yourself. You are a vessel of human consciousness.

Consider each of us growing from infancy, collecting knowledge through adolescence on into adulthood. We become part of numerous circles, music, theater, business, church, friends, family, work, etc. Those circles influence us and we in turn influence the circle. The higher one’s individual level of awareness or collective awareness happens to be, the greater his, her or their influence. Eventually, movement beyond the circles begins to happen and, concomitantly, greater change.

Reflect upon the change we all continue to experience. Technologically, we rapidly race constantly creating the next generation of gadgets. Socially, one can engage in thousands of micro-connections with countless people across various media platforms. Morally, progress is evident as equality is further embraced. Yet, forward momentum lacks in other arenas. Politically, here in the states, candidates continue the permanent campaign, electing to cater to votes rather than restructuring action. Voters continue the same trends as well with only slight, fresh sight toward third parties. Ironically, countless Americans still place their faith in one man to create all of this change when, in reality, we all co-create. Even if you are politically inactive, that is part of the co-creation. By remaining dormant you allow for an unaltered status quo. Some dismiss inaction by saying things like, “Dude, it is the way it is and it’s never gonna change.” As such remains part of the whole, that influence will be felt for some time to come.

What does all this have to do with 2012 or some big awakening? It’s just a tie along the knotted rope. While rare flowers blossom spontaneously, most beautiful things take time and intense cultivation to reach an evolved state of life. Our civilizations are no different. As I said, we are all vessels of consciousness. Minds change, become stagnate, once again inspired and grow in with different branches. Then the individual minds stack into neighborhoods, cities, governments, corporations, religions, schools, countries and finally a vast globe composed of limitless potential. A new world or end thereof will never happen on one given date. We have evolved for years and will for years to come.